Reflection

Thanks to my wonderful MIL and Proactiv my reflection is looking better these days, but my body is feeling a little tired and yucky.

I'm not really sure what I want to write about tonight, I've been feeling a little down lately so nothing too fantastic is sticking out in my brain. Alan did a lot of work on the treehouse, I stayed in bed till noon and the kids played.

I don't like feeling sick, I feel guilty sleeping and staying in bed, it's very hard to do, I think as women we let that guilt get to us...at least I do. I tried to ignore it and let my body recover but I have so many things that I wanted to get done on this break, and today was my last day, so being sick was a HUGE inconvenience. It is a good time for reflection though, and maybe that's what I needed more than getting my projects done, I needed to slow down and reflect.

I have been thinking about where we are going as a family and what our family life will be like 5 years down the rode when our kids will be older and in school, making their own friends, and what type of friends they would choose. I think of how they will treat me and how I will treat them, the type of relationship I will have will them. I sometimes long for those days when they are older and we can talk about the gospel and we can memorize scriptures together as a family and go on fun outings that are difficult with toddlers and babies, but then I realize the life I am longing for won't happen on it's own, that I need to start now. I have to be more patient and soft spoken now if I want to be later, I have to start a sweet relationship with my children now and care for them now so that later they will know I really do care later. It is actually a little overwhelming for me to think about, I do wish a tiny bit that it could just happen on it's own, but I do know that it is worth it.

I was asked by our YW President to speak at this months fireside. At first I felt pretty cool that they picked me, but then I felt VERY unqualified. The topic they asked me to speak on is Divine Nature. I have spoken in Sacrament Meeting on this same topic before, so I am excited to do it again. There is a lot to say about Divine Nature...I'm not sure what it is exactly, but I know there will be a lot. ;0).

Our house is clean and we are ready for Church tomorrow. I am hoping that I feel really good so that I can go. I am also hoping to hear back from our Homeopath in AZ about what's going on with my poor body.

Here is one of the talks I have listened to to help prepare for this talk. It is a great talk for everyone to hear, I love Pres. Eyering.

I would like to write more, but I know that my lengthy posts are a little too frequent, so....

Happy Sept 11 everyone, I hope you say a special prayer for our wonderful country, those who run it and all those affected 9 years ago.

God bless America...my home sweet home!